A Heavy Heart

There are so many more important things in this world than the sadness I am feeling. Please forgive me if I whine a bit too much. Know that I realize most of the horrible sadness faced in countries throughout the world. I do not wish to minimize their importance. My sadness is hitting very close to home. My sweet little girl cat, Annapurrna, is in the final stages of life. She stopped eating on Wednesday. She isn't hiding, but staying alone in various spots in our home. When people become "empty nesters," they tend to make their pets their children. Purrna is my sweet little friend. Even now, if DH or I pet her, she starts to purr. I've offered her all of her favorite foods. She won't take anything. She is still drinking water.

Two years ago, on Thanksgiving morning, we found Purrna barely alive. We took her to the vet who diagnosed her with renal failure. He did a type of dialysis on her and sent her home to die. That was November of 2005. The vet told us she had days to weeks, to two months - not more. Our little feline friend has lasted two years. November doesn't seem to be a good month for her. Purrna is 15. I know she has had a wonderful life. She's been happy and well cared for. I know it is her time to leave me. I just wish it didn't hurt so damn much.I'm so sad, I can't even think about Thanksgiving and the guests we going to have!

When I'd scrap, she'd lay on the paper cutter and watch me with interest. If I left an unfinished LO on the table overnight, I'd find it rearranged the next day. She is just so very sweet. She has done this twice before. We were able to pull her out of it by feeding her crab. Now, she licks her "lips" and then walks away. DH and I just don't know if we should have her put down yet. She isn't in pain. She's just "not there."

Thank you for listening to my tale of sorrow.

Our DIL was here this week studying for her oral exam for her Master's degree in English. She took her oral exam yesterday and passed with flying colors! So, to honor her gift of knowledge, I worked on this LO as a tribute to her special day. I did it through many tears.

I used a Prima Paintable sheet of CS and my water color pencils with a blender pen. I was very afraid to use water and a paint brush because if I messed up, I wouldn't be able to fix it. The colors are VERY vibrant IRL. There is beige mesh behind the lace bow. There are stick pins through the bow. The printed flowers are all painted and then covered with a matching Prima flower w/ a Doodlebug flower in the center.


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